I'M BACK

I have come to notice that having a blog is not the easiest thing to do. I have just been so busy that I really haven't had time to try and mess with it but I have finally found some time and now that I have a new laptop it is much easier to work on. So I Dave and I have finally gone on some hikes and I make it a point to take walks around my neighborhood during the week to get some fresh air instead of running at the gym. And I feel SO much better! (doesn't help that I quit smoking almost a year ago also yay me!). But sadly since I've started my journey I haven't had much luck at all with losing weight. Even in following my diet and exercises my nutritionist has given me I haven't had any success. My nutritionist and I both agreed that I need to look into it being something to do with my health and after tests and doctors we have figured out that I have pcos and that my insulin is way high because of it. I have just been put on metformin to help regulate my insulin and hopefully (fingers crossed) lose some weight. I don't think anyone, unless you have gone through it, understands how difficult it is to try and try and try to get healthy and lose weight and get absolutely no where. It is the most frustrating thing. And I have noticed all people want to do is judge. my mind set for seeing people has completely changed. Sometimes just working out and dieting doesn't work as many people might think. Sometimes it is internal and you may not have any control over it. I came into this journey thinking I was going to work hard and be able to shed weight like nothing. And it has been the complete opposite. Do I feel better and do I feel stronger? yes of course. But to know that it isn't because you're not trying hard enough but that your body is holding you back is very discouraging. On top of now having to deal with the side effects that come with my medicine and knowing that I could potentially have diabetes early in my life because of my condition. And no I won't have diabetes because I ate too much junk food and never worked out and never took care of myself like people like to think I will have it because all this time my pancreas has been working over time for no reason and it's probably just going to crap out because it's used all it has so early. I'm hoping this time next year I will have a complete 360. Not even a year in 6 months I'm hoping that with the combination of my diet and exercises and medicine I'll be the healthiest Kaitlin I have ever been=). On that note I'm going to be adding some more recipes and such. Talk to you all soon!!!